thank-you for the phone calls and love
pity party not over... a little worse!!!!!

1 year ago today i found out i had cancer
what a year!

i need to find my purpose.. my calling.. learn to follow through.. i want so much more from life.. sometimes i feel im living such a lie..

congrads to april - having a boy!
ali edwards had her new little one... she is so pretty!

le anne

have you ever felt like...I SUCK!
im in the middle of a pitty party...
i have not done to well at this bloggin everyday thing...
I SUCK!!!

be back when party is over...
le anne

well i suck i missed yesterday... ooooppps

went to church today...
stayed on diet...
spent the afternoon with tucker...
back to the rat race tomorrow...
love le anne

good afternoon..
day 2 and doing well
stayed on the diet, no ugly words said and tucker and i spent the whole day together and had a great time. dog park, bowling, playing games and doing laundry (not fun for her but had to be done!)

you can see all of my scrapbook room floor now.. YEA!!! and going to do some work in it tonight! the living room not so pretty, but i have gone throught 21 boxes from stuff from the fire and got it down to 16 boxes. if i had my china canbinet and 2 more shelving unit in the scrapbook room (eric's Marine Corps stuff) it would be down alot more... but i will continue to wait on the insurance company to pay the man who is repairing, and restoring my antiques.

have not figured out how to post pics yet (sorry) but i have taken pictures of the scrapbbok room in progress to share... it doesn't look like jenni bowlin's but im happy with out it has come out.

only 3 more days off till im back to my part time job at school, have enjoyed the break with tucker and family.

off to play and clean (that only said for eric *wink wink)see you tomorrow!

love le anne

good morning 2009!

i have made it! 2008 was one of the hardest years of my life. but with God ALL things are possiable!

i have decide to change... things that hold me down, people that well are just not nice and dont provide a good enviroment for me well... good-bye!

i started this week with my life changes...
i recleaned out my scrapbook room (not done but will be by the end of the week-end)

here is a list of changes that i will make for myself this year...
1. be a better christian woman - more Christ like
2. be a better mother
3. organize my house to make it a home
4. scrapbook something every week
5. learn how to post pictures to this blog so i can share my life with you better.
6. post to this blog everyday
7. loose 7 lbs by the end of the month (small goals)

how will i reach this goal self control (pray for me), and i bought a juicer, losts of vegatables and fruit, protien shakes. and keep a food journal.

for those of you 2 people who read this go to www.memoryvilla.com and check out the retreat coming in march... super fun and alot of great women will be there!

off to work on scrapbook room!
love le anne

in kansas land....
want to to say hi to all.
i wish everyone a very merry christmas and a very happy new year.
thank-you to everyone for your prayers and warm thoughts during my very hard year. i had another hard week. i lost my dad on december 16 and my grandfather is still in the hospital. continue to pray.
im now cancer free and look forward to a better year.
many blessings
love le anne

ps i cant wait to share my new years promise to myself with you all! you will be very excited!!!

well for all 2 of you that read this i would thought i would take a little time to say hi -

for a very short update here we go by month....
september - after arriving in little rock to fly to arizona - to creative escape - eric calls and our house is on fire 70% of house contents gone and about 40% of house structure is gone. we move into apartment - i now remember why people buy houses! CRAZY people live in apartments! JJ

october - nothing eventful - still waiting to on insurance to start working on house.

november - USMC ball - and we start travling for cheer. in this month i had the hardest thing to deal with happen. my brother jerod and his wife danae were expecting twins - both boys due in march. well them little angels surprised us early and were born in late november. (i will not post pictures - if you would like to see and live close i will gladly show off my nephews) in the end i have two handsome angels watching over me. i love you teegan and merrick

december - nothing eventful have christmas at apartment alone and tucker gets her cell hone from santa - i will also mention 4 weeks later it was lost.

january - working on house still hope to be in it by end of the month. ohhhh and i quit my job - unemployed and stay at home mom.

febuary - well another rough month - this time for me. after a self exam back in november i finally go and have a mommogram done on feb 11 - i get the call on the 13 that changes my life - i have stage 2 breast cancer. - God my plate is full! oh and we are having to move back into the house undone!

march - the 6th i have a single massactomy and remove my right breast. move back into UNDONE house the 7th. i begin chemo on march 27th. still strugglng with all emotions on this sorry! went to memoryvilla crop the week after my surgery had the time of my life. thank-you ladies! and julie for driving me (this was an adventure in its self)

april - now bald - and have 2 chemo treatments under my belt. in the house did i mention still UNDONE. ohhh and still no job. where is the poor house????

may - nothing eventful - have 3 chemo treatments done. and i will be 38 this month! holy moly.

much love
le anne

hi
here im in the apartment life still - house is getting close maybe another 2 weeks. coming together pretty well. did i mention im getting my OWN scrapbook room! soooo excited! i love each and everyone of you who reads this all 5 of you! * wink will look forward to getting things back to normal when we get in the house!
kiss kiss
le anne

well here i am - 4 months later, and alot of things to talk about. i will start with these pictures and work from there. 4 cheer compititions and 4 - 1st places later! these are a few of my favorite photos of tucker.

i will stop and say that our family is doing well, alot of struggles and hard times. but hoping the first of the year will bring a fresh start!

love to all...le anne irene

well here we are 184.4 now down total of 4.4 pounds
i thought it would be more... but eric said i'm doing well!
heading off to little rock this week-end
got the cheer schedule this morning... getting closer!
see you next week
leanne

well with the help of eric... (to keep honest)
186.4
i lost 2.4 lbs.
new goal to loose 3 more lbs. by next wednesday!
wish me luck!
love le anne irene bull

can you keep a secret????
this is ellie bull - a boxer puppy
tucker's birthday gift from eric and i
she is getting a picture of her tommorow in her birthday card and we will pick her up friday.
she is so tiny!
le anne irene

HAPPINESS found... my new bag!
love le anne irene

well i lived throught the evening... *wink wink
after work went to tuckers's swimming lessons last night, she is doing so good! after that went home, tucker had cereal (i knew i ate to much of that stuff when i was pregnant) for me a multi vitamin and 2 eggs (scrambled w/ 1/3 cup cheese) & 2 slices of tomato w/ black pepper and a water. worked around the house, stared at my mmm entry and tried to put the last layout i need together... didn't happen!
this morning up at 5 shower and off to work. where i work there is a big circle drive. got here at 5:10 walked until i had done 2 miles 5:45 went to coffee beanery had my coffee only this time w/ low fat carmel and no whip (did NOT taste the same) but i will only have 2 of these per week where i was having 5 a week. breakfast yogurt and a red apple and water.

eric says after 14 days of change that this will be cope habit. i hope in 14 days i see a diffrence. i WILL see a diffrence.
thanks for all the love and support.
leanne irene

what is the hardest thing you have ever had to do??? for me i'm sure it's not the hardest but it is a really bad struggle. WEIGHT!
i'm going to give you a little history and tell you my plan... do i have one? i think so. and since only maybe 10 of you read this NO need to be embarrassed!
the year 2003 i have be struggling with LOTS of female problems and after 3 diffrent doctors it became obvious that a hysterectomy was in my near future. feb 2003 i go into have my surgery weighing 139 lbs..... fast forward today, my metabolism is in a coma! seriously a sleep.
i have had many battles in the last 2 years of my life that i think i use food as a healing agent. well not that my battles have gotten away but i have... aged, and aged bad. i look at my face a see alot of wrinkles and my skin just don't have that same look. i do drink ALOT of water, wash and moisturize my face everyday. but main problem is i have let my weight and how i feel about myself when i look in a mirror (YUCK) yes nak** (i know you are saying YUCK or did i really need to know that?) is not pleasing to me.
so today i bought a scale and i'm gonna start using it! i know that i will never have a runway models body.... but i could stand to be ALOT thinner and healthier with my eating habits. so since i bought the scale, i brought into my office and took it out of the package and weighed myself 188.8 lbs (there i said it, for all the world to hear) i will be setting small goals and letting you know what they are.
today 7-11-07 goal 1 - to weight 3 lbs less than i do today, i will eat no sweets, and eat healthier meals, and i will walk 5 days in the next week, at least a mile.
i'm not starting tomorrow, i started today. wish me luck.
i'm sure i will be here before the week is up.... see you soon!
le anne irene bull

will this gucci bag go with my gucci shoes? handbag $2,135.00 WHAT! fun to look
le anne irene bull

who really spend $635.00 on ONE pair of shoes... if i was rich i would on these! they are HOT! i would have to learn how to walk in them too! *wink wink
see you after the 4th - tucker is having a friend stay the night and i'm going to crop ALL night long!
le anne irene

miles said "to grab a drink" and "come kick it at the pool"
miles you are so cute! fatty!
love you
libby

hang on to your panties, i'm bloggin two days in a row!
i stole this from elsie flannigan's blog and thought it would be fun!

1. what is your favorite word? mommy
2. what is your least favorite word? work *wink wink
3. what turns you on creatively - spiritually - emotionally?
creatively - a great photo - and new products
spiritually - hearing a sermon from my pastor that really hits home, one that make me realize i'm not as nuts as i think i am.
emotionally - for me this is easy, i'm a emotional basket case so tucker sometimes touchs my heart with something so sweet and just out of the blue.
4. what turns you off? bad breath - bad teeth - rude people - people who eat with their mouth open.
5.what is your favorite curse word? sh*t or he*l
6. what sound or noise do you love? tucker when she is laughing so hard, and when she tells me she loves me.
7. what sound or noise do you hate? tucker talking back, rude people.
8. what profession other than your own would you attempt? paralegal - would have to go to school, but always wanted to do this. i'm way to emotional to be a lawyer.
9. what profession would you not like to do? mine *wink jj i could never be a nurse, poking people and seeing someones insides YUCK!
10. when you reach the pearly gates of heaven what would you like to hear God say? you may have slipped, you may have fell a time or two. but you prayed asked for forgivness, and my child i still loved you. you have made me proud.

let me know yours!
love
leanne irene

good morning fellow bloggers....
grab you favorite drink.... mine for now MONSTER!

i'm again a bad blogger! smacking hand!
i will go back as far as i can remember and tell all....

well tucker is out of school and currently going to girls inc. here in fort smith. it is a summer program for young ladies. tucker seems to like it. they can go swimming everyday if they would like, arts and crafts projects, cooking classes, hiking, going to the park, ect. what was such a blessing about this is, we were paying $65.00 a week at daycare. this whole summer program YEP you guess it $65.00 FOR THE WHOLE SUMMER! able to save alot of money and put it towards school. (tucker goes to a private christian school, if you are new to blog) we are on a 2 week break from cheer, kinda nice i still leave at 3 and spend the afternoon with tucker. speaking of cheer gonna get going full force in about 4 months, starting to learn parts of what i think might be the routine and tucker is looking real good for flying again. its so hard to believe she will be in 3rd grade this coming year. but you know they grow up right before our eyes, sometimes just a little to fast. speaking of that.... she lost a tooth the other night and placed it under her pillow, knowing that the tooth fairy was sure to come. but the tooth fairy was EXHAUSTED from having a yard sale in the house (more on this later) and having to clean it up.... that she went to sleep and didn't wake up till it was to late. sunday morning we go off to church and i tell tucker that i will call the tooth fairy and let her know that she had lost a tooth. when we get ready to go to bed that night tucker asked the question that i fear and know that she is growing up. "mom are you and dad the tooth fairy?" WHAT? i ask NO! (no i don't lie to her but here YES) why would you think that? i ask "just cause" she says. eric says he doesn't like lying to her, well i don't either but she is the last little on that i will have and i don't want to loose this, my luck next she will ask about "the big guy" you know!!! any how tooth fairy came and left $5.00. tucker was happy and nothing else has been said.
went off to gasc (great american scrapbooking convention) in arlington a couple of weeks ago with rhonda and melanie to teach for www.chatterboxinc.com i was just the cute girl handing out the kits and doing door prizes. had alot of fun. met up with april on friday only, and met with angie, brit, and mandi all week-end. {{love these girls}} and met my twin look at pic below miya and her mom alice. they were a BLAST! and a big shout out to jeannie, and my ever so sweet friend heather ales met up with her sunday at the store she works at www.scrpabookpad.com ok are you ready they have shopping carts IN A SCRAPBOOKING STORE! ohhhh THANK-YOU Jesus! I only spent about $40.00 but the whole shopping cart thing was tons of fun. wanna see a picture www.chatterboxinc.typepad.com and scan down you can see rhonda with one. ate at this killed mexican food place in the same shopping complex and the scrapbook pad! SERIOUSLY need one of them in fort smith. i kept eating and eating and when i felt it was stopping in my throat i knew i could not eat any more. all and all was a great time. i really missed julie and monica who went with us last year.
this coming week-end i'm preparing to go to pittsburg kansas (my hometown) it's my grandparents - nannie & popo's 60th wedding ann. (see pic of them below) get to go eat at chicken annies... mmmmmmmmmm can't wait and the saturday off to th park for some family fun and visiting. my aunt melinda and uncle carl and their children hans and anna with their spouses are here and can't wait to see them. will post pics when i get back.
my julie is turning 30.... we had her surprise birthday party saturday at her house. was a BLAST! she was so surprised! we had hamburgers - hot dogs - all the fixin's and great cake with fun drinks. i think a few people got pushed in the pool, maybe by accident.... NO - NO accident! with pink ballons and surronded by here friends i think she had a wonderful time. love you julie!
ok on to the yard sale, was going to have a yard sale saturday, but with the chance of rain.... i did the craziest thing ever! i had the yard sale in my front living room. moved the rug and couch into the dining room and with eric's help got it all set up by 10pm. the nest morning was a little slow, but my time it was all said and done $267.00 dollars and eric would not let me put ONE box back into his garage. so divided it all up community rescue mission, clothes closet, good will, and a trash bag. it's all gone! have added some new things while going room to room in the house but most of the stuff has been though 3-4 yard sales. was so good to clean it all out. when we got home sunday from church and to sweep and mop the floor twice to get it looking good. but with it clean, dining room new paint and all SLAH decorations out, clena sheets on everyones beds, a whole LARGE bottle on pine sol, and laundry caught up (don't look and the back room - will be done this week) the house looks so nice. smells SO clean. i {{love}}it!
having a small get together in july and the big one....
tucker's 8th birthday party coming up july 20th. sending out invitations to 18 little girls to come to our house for a sleep over. eric is SOOOOOOO excited! i think it will be a blast.
so i'm glad to get the house cleaned up alittle bit. would like it all looking nice before my little gathering, and tucker's party.
scrapbooking personaly.... cleaned out the scrapbook room and have better than half of it purged and cleaned out and sold it all in the yard sale! have finally got a system that i think will work big ziploc bags went through 3 huge boxes and labeled them with events and laid it all out on the floor, i think i have it all sorted out and can start working on albums or mini albums for all of them. i have some great ideas running through my head.... if only i had the time to make them all happen! speaking of that....
i have some really big desires in my heart and really trying to put the foundations down to make thoughs desires and dreams come true. please say a little prayer for me. i continue to ask God if He is putting these desires in my heart to show me the path He would have me take to make them happen!
well i think my fingers are numb.... julie i posted girl and posted BIG!
i love you all (all 10 of you) *wink wink
le anne irene